Yayyy! It’s Friday! 9 more days ’til Christmas! I seriously cannot believe how fast it has been! Another year has gone by and we are all one year older and wiser! (I hope that’s the case for me).
So if you are wondering why my hair is darker, I can explain! lol I totally forgot about this shoot that I did back in the east coast a few months ago! This was my first day going back to darker hair. I apologize but better late than never right? I did this shoot in Richmond, VA, the city I call my home because I spent a memorable 6 years attending college and working there. My friends are all there! So being back home felt amazing! I also met new people while catching up with old friends. The weather was a little gloomy with a light breeze that day, but honestly, I thought it was perfect for this look. I wore Wet Seal; I used to shop there so often before Forever 21. But one day Wet Seal disappeared! I was devastated but eventually moved on.
However, now that they are back, I couldn’t help but do a shoot with these items I got from them! The kimono with the fringe caught my eyes as soon as I saw it! The way it flows and how relaxed it looks was just perfect with this bodycon midi olive green dress from them as well. I’ll let you in on a secret! This dress is actually long! It’s passed my knees. But for this look I wanted to make it more playful, the trick with bodycon dresses like this, you can pull it up and make it into a shorter dress! Plus it is very useful for us petite ladies not being stuck in a short dress! I love the color of this dress so much that I really wanted to keep this outfit as simple as possible. I used very minimal jewelry and wore white egg wash colored heels. The material of my outfit is extremely soft and light to wear! I can’t wait to wear more Wet Seal clothing now that they are back in business!
As you can see in these pictures, I know many of you are now just finding out I have little tats on my body. So I figured this post could be a little about me and the meaning behind two of my tattoos.
Let me start off by saying that I am not trying to make you sad or anything with what I am about to share with you all. This time of year is all about miracle, love, and happiness even though there are sad things happening around us. But it is up to us to determine how we feel and look at things, and I choose to look at things in a positive light even when times are tough!
So at this time of the year last year, it was my first Christmas in Los Angeles. I had a giant Christmas tree (my first real one that I cut down), there was no snow on the ground. Nothing about LA made me felt like Christmas besides being in my studio apt with my cat and my giant tree! I didn’t go home to the east coast because I had no vacation time at work. So long story short, I was pretty bummed out that it was Christmas and I didn’t get to share it with my loved ones.
I have to say last year was pretty tough for me and I think I am finally ready to talk about it. Around Halloween time, I went through a bad break up and it made it even worse because it was a long distance relationship for a little bit because I moved across the country. Long story short the breakup happened. After the breakup, I was under lots of stress and about a month or so after, I found out I had a couple of lumps in my left breast. I didn’t want to go see a doctor because I was afraid of what the outcome would be. It took me one month to finally go to the doctor because it was bothering me so much.
I was under so much stress and I was really scared. So I hoped for the best and went to see the doctor. First I was told it was abnormal results so I went through a biopsy and found out that it wasn’t cancerous at this time but it is unknown for what it could be so I will always have to do regular follow ups. So with that being said, I was in a very bad place for a little bit because I was in denial of what was happening to myself. I couldn’t understand why and how it happened. Until this day I am still not okay with it because I am living with it, and occasionally I have to deal with the pain. I didn’t want to go through surgery because there’s a chance the lumps would grow back and surgery could cause deforming of my breast.
Eventually, I knew it was time to get myself out of the state I was in. I decided to look at all the positive things in my life. That was when I decided I would go forward with my tattoo ideas that I’ve wanted to get for a very long time. I needed to do something to push myself out of that state of mind. I wasn’t afraid of the pain because I already had my first one. I was more nervous about getting two pieces done at the same time.
The one on my wrist is a forward arrow, it symbolizes moving forward and that is exactly what I did, and I moved on and decided to take life as it is. Live to the fullest and do what I want and what made me happy instead of worrying about what others thought of me. For the longest time, I found myself putting others first instead of my own needs and I became someone I didn’t like. I wasn’t happy. But after everything that happened last winter, I have changed how I live my life and learned to love and accept myself for better or worse.
The breast cancer ribbon I got on my shoulder is something I hold dear to my heart. I knew someone who lost her battle against breast cancer. And I admire all the women out there who are survivors and the ones who are fighting it head strong. Those women are true heroes. Just me getting a glimpse of it almost scared me to death. This tattoo is a reminder to myself why I need to always fight and show my support for the cause.
So this holiday season, I will be spending my time with loved ones because life is short. Why not do what makes you happy! Don’t hold back on anything. And most importantly, always fight for yourself and what you believe in!
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Since the Kimono, and shoes are no longer available, I have provide another one that would look good.